"The Most
Intense Experience of My Life" - By James
Keegan
Well, my long awaited
salvia dragon arrived on
Monday in the mail. My first experiences with salvia
(two total) were about four years ago, and although I
even had used an MAOI the second time, I had only the
very slightest effects. I regret those trips because it
was before I had educated myself about salvia, and most
drugs. In the last year or two, Ive been studying up,
and reading every resource I can about salvia. I finally
decided to buy some, and I purchased the
regular-strength enhanced salvia online.
Although it was expensive, expensive Im glad I
purchased it, as I felt particularly safe about buying
from them/him. The site itself was obviously a gem of
knowledge and countless people have referred me there. I
had no scale to measure, so I used the method that I had
been directed to by a regular here (I lurk here, and
read everyday, but never posted more than a few
questions). I had my first experience in four years on
Monday night. It was one of the most surreal experiences
I've ever had. I believe that I was at a level 3 trip,
on the SALVIA trip scale. I was very aware that I was
under the influence of salvia, and I was aware that I
was hallucinating (when I tried to analyze it). In
hindsight It seems that all of my sensory input was
'translated' into feeling. I cant remember any auditory
hallucinations, and very very little visual (closed and
open eyes), but every time I would hear, smell or see
something, it would be instantly translated into a
feeling. I dont remember a whole lot of the trip, or the
exact duration. I had gotten very little sleep the night
before, and was tired at the time I used it. I remember
starting at 6pm, and waking up from my bed at 9pm. I
don't remember falling asleep, because I can only put
together a few distinct things I remember from the
experience. I was careful in picking the room that I was
in. I chose the guest room in my house, because it is
small, and simple, and very clean. My room is in the
basement, and is much larger.
The walls are COVERED with all sorts of
obnoxious/complex eye candy, and the room itself is very
messy. I decided to trip in a less obtrusive
environment. The bed was very wide and comfortable. I
stayed in that bed the whole experience. I lit two
candles and set them on a shelf across the room. My
'sitter' was in the other rooms of the house, and I told
her to only come in, in the case of an emergency. This
was probably not the safest decision, but after the trip
I decided that it was the best decision, since my trip
was very personal. I remember feeling the whole time,
that if someone was to come in, that I would be
extremely embarrassed.
I loaded my bong VERY carefully, after measuring out
1/4 teaspoon of salvia, and dividing it into four equal
parts. I started with one of the fourths. One of the
residents in the house is very particular about smoke,
so out of courtesy I opened the glass sliding door to
smoke. The rain was pounding down outside. I took one
very large hit out of a bong (with ice water) and using
a butane torch lighter. Before I could even let out the
smoke, I had this immense feeling of circulation through
my body. The sound of the rain must have had some
connection to this, because I felt a connection between
the rain and the feeling, but I couldn't actually focus
on the rain, I could only feel this sensation. I forgot
to exhale (which turned out to happen a lot throughout
the trip). I had to remind myself to exhale and I felt
like I was leaving someone close when I exhaled. I didnt
want to let the smoke go. I took another two hits until
all of it was gone. I got up to quickly load another
fourth. I was a little disoriented but I made it over
and loaded it up. I took another two hits out of that,
and then set my bong and lighter aside and laid down on
the bed. I kept having that feeling of circulation, so I
shut the sliding glass door and as the rain sound
stopped, so did the feeling of circulation. At this
point I dont remember what I was feeling, and I can
hardly recall anything besides at one point (this is the
only thing I remember specifically), I had this feeling
of cold wetness on my right upper thigh. I immediately
remembered that I had forgotten to use the washroom
before tripping. I had to go, but I didnt actually do
it, since I had been preparing in other ways. I tried to
ignore the feeling but it kept getting colder and
wetter. It was isolated to this one area on my thigh.
As time progressed (at this point I had lost my grasp
of western time) I felt like i had urinated my pants and
trickling down my leg to that increasingly wet spot. I
reached down to try to feel if my pants were wet, and
they felt soaked! Wet and cold. Ironically I didnt feel
embarrassed or strange about this at all. It was just
something that happened. I took off the pants and
finished the trip under the covers in my boxers (which
did not feel wet).Once I removed my pants the feeling
went away. The only other feeling I can remember
specifically was that I was panting very hard. My
breaths were very heavy and loud, yet I didnt feel like
I was breathing irregular at all. It felt normal, and
almost better than normal. I had to really concentrate
to realize how hard I was breathing. The next thing I
remember is waking up at 9pm, three hours later and
still being tired. I remember during the whole trip, a
constant feeling of joy. It was, just a positive
feeling. When I woke up, although I didnt have any mind
opening insights, or amazing philosophical discorveries,
I felt that I had been welcomed, if not slowly into the
realm of salvia. The experience was not harsh or
unpleasant in anyway. Ive been aware of drug reaction =
user + expectation + setting and I was careful not to
worry about expectation too much. I think keeping an
open mind had something to do with the positive
experience. |